waiting....

i came to the place we first met...to talk to you.People tell me you you can't hear me because your gone...I just tell them you might be gone in there eyes...but not mine...because your still in my heart and always will be...:X I cry when I think oh you :(( but people ask me WHY...I just ell them how I felt about you and how i still love you...:X:Xand that I miss you so much..but people tell me there is no point in still loving youbecause your gone and will never be coming back..and I agree with them on one thing" you are gone!:( But you will never be forgetten and one day we will meet again...I PROMISE!!! I pay to God every night asking Him to keep you safe..and I talk to Him about meeting you again.I wanted things to end just so I can see your face again...IN HEAVEN!!...but then I thought and realised, you wouldn't want me to do that.I try to be happy..but I can't when I know I won't hear your voice again for a long time...i never imagined living with out you..but now i have no choise..I have too...I never thought you would of left me .Mum keeps saying you didn't want to leave me ..It's just that God needed an angel . I've even asked God if I can be his next angel just so I can be with you...He never replies...I've even asked God why ...why did He have to take you????Was it just to hurt me??I don't think anybody really know's how much it hurts just to be missing you....:(:( I HATE YOU NOT BEING AROUND!!I wish get to see you just one last time so I could say a proper goodbye.:(:( :x No one seems to understand me anymore..NO one understand's that I will always love you.I never thought this would really happen..but it has...:(NO ONE DID! =[ I wish that I could look back on the good times with you...but all that has gone..everything has changed & even thinking about it makes me want to cry... :(( but mum tell's me not to cry. She told me that your looking over me and wouldn't want me to be sad...I tell her I'm sorry...but that is all I can do.She told me that I could look back on the good memories but I can't with out you...How could I look back on the memories and have to do it with out you????? :(((((( she ask's me why but all i can ever reply is ....... I NEED TO SEE YOUR SMILE, and feel your touch when we're tougether .hear you laughing as we look back on the memories...then mum says ..well why don't you tell me and him together all the good memories together..but then i tell her I wish I could tell you...she tald me I can..because you will always be with me....then she said you would never give up on me becouse you love me too much...and I LOVE YOU TOO..